everything in my life is happening RIGHT NOW!
literally, it's kind of scary that in basically a couple weeks i've been elevated to almost an adult.
today i got my license [which was easssyyy, i kicked ass at parallel parking and 90 degree parking] and i have my car all ready and nice to drive with it's new tabs and new mirror.
thursday i met with my mentors, who are so chill and awesome. i'll be a mentee at mainstream boutique in apple valley. one of the most exciting things is i'll actually get to go to market with the buyer, which is basically where they go find new lines for their stores, it'll be amazing. fashion is such an important aspect of my life, i know this will be a huge step for me, almost like taking stairs 10 at a time, you know what i mean?
i've also got this amazing guy in my life now. =] and my friends totally support me on it. [well the majority of them....] and he is so fckn adorable, i can't stand it. it's so obnoxious liking someone, you get all crazy nervous for no reason, and work extra hard to look amazing everyday. i sometimes feel like im in a backseat goodbye song [listen to one and you'll get it] =] and thats really all i have to say about it for the moment...
im afraid to let one of my best friends in on it. just because....lately....she hasnt been so supportive of anything. shes mostly just been trying to keep herself above water in her insecurities, and it gets super old and i just want to yell at her to figure it out for herself. you cant rely on others for everything. you can't call people a million times a day. you cant always have the world revolve around you just to support you. you have to BE fckn responsible and a strong person and do it yourself, and blame yourself and say your wrong for things.
its ridiculous how some people just dont get the big picture. the things they say, the things they do. you CANT be spoon fed your whole life. if you have a problem a. admit your WRONG, even if your not. its the tactful thing to do. b. solve/talk it all out and fix your problem. c. move on.
i feel like the people around me have alot of maturing to do. age really isnt anything but a number, its all about your maturity and attitude.
on the other hand, finals sucked pretty much. more studying probably would have helped, but i think i did well anyways.
also my mom is being a crazy psyco and wont let me drive this weekend until monday =[[[ what the hell...
but....thats oretty much whats gone down lately. =]
